More, Now, Again
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unbound_spirit*I finished reading Elizabeth Wurtzel's "More, Now, Again". She seems like such an amazing human being, I almost wish I knew her personally. I met her back in 2003 when she came to Princeton to talk about "Prozac Nation" for the medical anthropology department. She signed my copy and I got a picture with her, but admittedly, she seemed a little out of it at the time. Still, she seems like someone who would be cool to know.
*I'm now singing this crazy Stockhausen piece in the Percussion departmental after spring break. I'm totally exhausted and I have way too much music to learn in the next few weeks, but this piece is really good and I feel like I may never get a chance to perform it again, you know?
*Now that my grandfather is dying, there's all kinds of crazy financial paperwork I need to sign and go through with my uncle. Its kind of anxiety-provoking. I haven't cried about grandpa yet, because I just can't. I think I'm in denial. I love him so much, I just can't imagine not having him. He's my family's patriarch. He came to this country with nothing and worked his whole life so that his family could have a better life. He lived a selfless existence, everything was for us. He is so good, and so wise. When grandma died, I told him he wasn't allowed to go until I got married. I told him I wanted him to dance at my wedding. But now, now that I know that will never happen, I can't help but feel like I've failed him, because I know he wanted that for me too.
*On a brighter note, my birthday is coming up. 24 years. Oh God, stop me before I start quoting Thomas Mann...
*I'm now singing this crazy Stockhausen piece in the Percussion departmental after spring break. I'm totally exhausted and I have way too much music to learn in the next few weeks, but this piece is really good and I feel like I may never get a chance to perform it again, you know?
*Now that my grandfather is dying, there's all kinds of crazy financial paperwork I need to sign and go through with my uncle. Its kind of anxiety-provoking. I haven't cried about grandpa yet, because I just can't. I think I'm in denial. I love him so much, I just can't imagine not having him. He's my family's patriarch. He came to this country with nothing and worked his whole life so that his family could have a better life. He lived a selfless existence, everything was for us. He is so good, and so wise. When grandma died, I told him he wasn't allowed to go until I got married. I told him I wanted him to dance at my wedding. But now, now that I know that will never happen, I can't help but feel like I've failed him, because I know he wanted that for me too.
*On a brighter note, my birthday is coming up. 24 years. Oh God, stop me before I start quoting Thomas Mann...
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Date: 2006-03-16 05:43 am (UTC)I know how it is, my grandma passed away around this time last year- it's still tough at times
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Date: 2006-03-16 10:16 pm (UTC)her nerves were shot.
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Date: 2006-03-21 05:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-16 11:58 pm (UTC)Holy crap, yours is the day after mine! (I just checked)
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Date: 2006-03-21 05:57 am (UTC)How old are you? I assumed you were around the same age as me... no?
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Date: 2006-03-17 11:48 pm (UTC)I didn't know about your grandfather dying...I'm sorry you are going through this right now.
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Date: 2006-03-21 05:59 am (UTC)And thank you. It hasn't even really hit me yet though. I haven't even cried about it because I just can't really believe that its true. He looks the same, he seems the same, I can't imagine that he's just going to suddenly be gone before I know it.
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Date: 2006-03-21 06:23 am (UTC)congrats on Festival di Roma, I'm so happy for you, you deserve it.
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Date: 2006-03-23 07:26 am (UTC)Thanks on OFDR!!! I can't wait!!!
This is totally unrelated to your post but...
Date: 2006-03-24 02:21 pm (UTC)I auditioned for Peabody on 2/22 and I have a trial lesson on Monday 3/27 I have some free time after the lesson, do you think its possible to meet up around 5:30/6 and have a chat about the school and the MM program?
If not, maybe can I email you about it?
Thanks,
Lesley
AIM: metopin10
email: metopin10@yahoo.com
Re: This is totally unrelated to your post but...
Date: 2006-04-03 12:25 am (UTC)Angel1994 AT yahoo DOT com
With whom did you have a trial lesson?